Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Wife Life: Last Name Limbo

Amy Polley Amy Polley Amy Polley.

I have to keep reminding myself that I have a new last name, as made official by the US Social Security Office!  I will, however, keep my blog URL and website/photography company as Amy E. Frost, mostly because A- I don't want to go through the hassle of changing my domain and B- Amy Polley, Amy Polley Photography, Amy E. Polley, etc. are all taken and C- It's part of my email address and Lord knows that's in too many places and more of a pain than necessary, I believe, and D- I still want to cling to Frost, if just in some areas.

What does it mean to be a wife?  Surprisingly, this is today's verse of the day:  "A wife of noble character, who can find? She is worth far more than rubies." - Proverbs 31:10

I also read this today: "He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord." - Proverbs 18:22

...is this what a wife looks like??

Parts of me still feel like I'm playing "house" or "pretend" and it's all giggles and fantasies.  I'm sure it will come with time and life events and shared experiences, but I just have to note for historical purposes that it's weird!!

What I hope and pray for right now is that I will be a good wife to Mark, support him and love him and comfort him and help him to be the man that he is supposed to be, and to help guide and not hinder him from God's will for his/our life.

Don't get me wrong, I am still very much a Frost.  It kind of hurts to not have that as my last name anymore, but that doesn't mean that I'm losing that part of me.  I'm taking everything that has made me into a Frost, determination, loyalty, overwhelming love, lightheartedness, (a love for margaritas!!), and so much more, into being a Polley.

So, as of now, we've only been married 31 days and it feels weird.  Like an identity crisis in the best way possible.  Everything has changed, but it will just get better.

And praise be to God who made it all happen, and gave me the most incredible family to raise me to be a woman (that word weirds me out) lady with the potential to be a great wife, and who will continue to support me and help me grow into this weird new identity, even though I won't have the same last name anymore.

I feel like this post has been really strange, but that's just where I'm at for the moment!  Weird last name limbo.  I love my family, I love Mark, I love being a Frost and I love being a Polley!